~xAngelXofXMusicxErik

all day i have been freaking out about how she hasnt been on in two days, and how i havent gotten any messages nor n otes and i kept on messaging her asking why she hasnt called yet, and ive been waiting just by the phone all week, and


and THE DACT THAT SHE CALLED AND NO ONE TOLD ME!


but she called again,... and didnt know who she was talking too


its okay, she didnt want to talk to me anyways T.T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


oh and the reason i was so stupid, was because they are having this huge marathon of avatar......

dont you have something better to do besides pick on the mortals!?









dear god! I miss you!!







dear god,

...give up!

what? i know that someone was there, but i dont know if they did anything, but whos watching me? well, im off to yell at them, whom ever they are...

how i feel about everything....


" back home, off the run, singing songs that make you slit your wrists, it isnt that much fun, staring down a loaded gun. so i wont stop dieing, wont stop lying, if you want, i'll keep on crying, did you get what you deserve? is this what you always want me for? well, i miss you, i miss you, so far, --- way down way down way down way down way down way down way down way down,.. I MISS YOU I MISS YOU SO FAR!!"

i miss you so far, but i cant do anything about it...

"
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
God must hate me
Cursed me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down and you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell and I wanna go home"

or what i called home

"Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.---I'm not okay,I'm not okay, I'm not okay,--
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!---
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me Because I'm telling you the truth I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay I'm not okay Well, I'm not okay I'm not o-fucking-kay I'm not okay I'm not okay(Okay)"


i cant explain how much the world hurts, we are getting older, and the world gets cold.

but after winter, is spring, so hang in there.

"if its a stormy winter, then can spring be around the corner?"


you read it, and at first you ask, "can they have a question"


but it makes sence. just think about it.




i hate the snow.